baby steps.
didnt sleep a wink ytd til this morning. woke up with puffy eyes that subsided after another few hours' sleep. as usual lotsa people called/sms me whenever i am in dire need of rest. bah. coincidence? you can say that again.
survived through this horrible day with e company of my dearest bong. whenever i had nothing to distract my mind from wandering, tears would threaten to flow. am glad that i have someone by my side to accompany me chase away e gloom, and listen to my fears and troubles.
didnt contact or reply to his messages and calls e whole day. but i called him in e end. couldnt stand it. and he was waiting for my call, long after lights out. he said he didnt switch off his phone in case i call.
sigh. sometimes i just wish i could just hide in one corner and scream all my fears out. maybe then they will quit haunting me.
but all better now. at least i can breathe now, without feeling as if i would burst into tears. baby steps. baby steps.
